I freakin hate internet exploder. Can i just say that right now, that it just sucks? Beef of the day: i just had half an entry written. And then i hit backspace, but apparently the cursor had moved out of my typing window (probably one of those incessant popup dialogs that keeps me from keeping any concentration) and apparently backspace means “go back a page” in explorer and so it went back a page and wiped out everything i’d done. Now i’m all about keystroke shortcuts, but they should be a little less incidental. I mean, the computer doesn’t reboot every time i touch the “r” key, does it? Well, things do crash pretty often, but i haven’t yet attributed them to a specific key. Augh! Who can i punish for this infamy?!?

So i spent about two hours reading an interesting article about the future of power generation. Some new, more efficient, cleaner methods that are on the horizon. Pretty cool if you enjoy that sort of stuff like i do. I think i should have taken more physics, or at least played less tetris on my calculator in the courses i did take. I wonder if physicists have an easier time finding good jobs…

Now why did it take me two hours to read the article? I’m not a slow reader, and it’s not a long piece. No, it’s just the yammering television in my left year preventing me from concentrating for more than like 3 seconds at a time. Having a headache the size of Sheboygan doesn’t help. My microwave lunch is in the initial stages of preparation; i’ve been biding my time to eat until it’s OK to take some more Advil. But the headache is secondary; this idiot box is making me crazy today, more than usual.

I pretty much hated tv already. It’s mostly mindless drivel, insulting to my intelligence and deadly to my productivity. I’m not saying i don’t watch tv, or find things that hold my attention on tv, but i almost always regret the time i spend glued to the giant brain-sucking eyeball and rarely – if ever – come away smarter, happier, healthier or better off. Usually, in fact, the opposite of all those things. So that aspect of this job is killing me. I’ve received lots of comments along the lines of “you watch tv all day at work? that must be nice!” but i’m here to tell you it’s not nice. It sucks.. The flapping jaws of the news media, the whizbang strobing of ads and promotionals, the circular plots and brainwashing plastic sameness that raise today’s children and therefore shape tomorrow’s world into whatever MTV wants it to be are driving me mad. 12 hours a day, pounding on my brain. Perish the thought i should try to work or concentrate or form coherent thoughts during a period of the day when i’m theoretically being paid to do all those things. I turn it off when i’m here alone, but that is most often not the case. Even without the sound, i can feel it sucking my brain away. Augh! There is no apparent escape…

I am not one of those people who turns on the tv while i’m spending time on a project, or puts in a movie and then walks around the house. The flickering box distracts me, interrupts my thoughts. Music is different – music motivates, empowers, relaxes and recharges me. With only small exception, every part of my day is a little easier with a soundtrack – thus my justification to buy an iPod. Note, however, that i felt i could afford an iPod, but still feel that i cannot afford cable tv. I believe that sums up my priorities right there.

Television is my Matrix, a false world that is broadcast in front of my eyes containing all the laughter, sadness, drama and entertainment that would be possible in real life were i not planted here watching it artificially happen to someone else. The problem is, i’m not buying it anymore, and i want to unplug. Now where is Morpheus with my red pill??